Academia just isn’t my bag, baby
You’ll notice in my blogroll that I have a few medical-type blogs that I read (they’re great reads, check them out). I’m actually fascinated by medicine, and my family is full of medical-type people; my mother and aunt (father’s little sis) are RNs, my aunt (mother’s little sis) is a pediatric intensivist (her 2nd career after she was a hot-shot lawyer in L.A.), and her partner is an APRN (ob/gyn). To this day my family regularly asks me if I would please-please-please consider going to medical school - despite having a very successful career in engineering, and a just-starting career in wedding photography. Their reason for asking me still, even though I already have a career? “Because if some of these idiots I work with can be doctors, you could do it blindfolded and with your hands tied behind your back” - attribute this to all four medical field relatives, as they have all said this to me at one point or another. It’s not just medical school though; regularly from everyone in my family, some friends, and even old teachers, people are always suggesting some form of further education I should be seeking.
My father is the only person who is truly psyched about my chosen career - maybe because ohhh…we happen to work at the same place, and he gets to introduce me to his work friends all the time. “This is my daughter, Sidney! She’s the [blahblahblah] that they’re always talking about in the 8:30 meeting!” and of course, his chest puffs out with pride when he brags about me to people at work. (How I feel about being introduced to people first as his daughter and second with my title is probably fodder for an entire other post, actually…)
I wonder about this dichotomy, and why people seem so passionate about me going back to school. My mother is especially guilty of this; when I tell her “violence in movies makes my legs get weak and my stomach flip-flop, how the hell am I going to handle someone whose guts are spilling out of their body?” she switches tactics, reminding me of my stellar LSAT scores. “You could go to law school! They have a part-time program at UCONN! And those LSATs could easily get you into Yale!” Nevermind that I do not want to pay for either UCONN or Yale law school, not that my N.mumble GPA in undergrad would get me acceptance to either, anyway. My p.i. aunt is the same way; “you know, you really should at least go back and get an M.B.A. if you’re going to stay in the engineering field. You already hit the glass ceiling, you said so yourself.” My elementary school gifted teacher, who is now 89-years old and has recently converted to some sort of monkhood cult in the catholic church (the regular church was just “too liberal” for her) also brings this up during our bi-weekly phone conversations. “When are you going to medical school? You have the brains for it, you know. Your mother always wanted you to be a doctor.”
You can imagine my disgust when I caught my mother and her sister talking on the phone about my baby cousins (future, hypothetical seeing as they are 6 and 7 years old) SAT scores, and how they would affect into which colleges they would gain admission.
“I see now why my cousin Erin always told everyone she wanted to drive a dump truck! You guys put too much pressure on everyone! You know not everyone wants to be an over-achieving school nerd!*”
* My mother went to college for about 20 years, and has over four degrees framed and hanging on the wall. My father has double undergraduate and double masters degrees as well as an M.B.A. I managed to finish one major in college, and I haven’t seen my Smyff degree since graduation. I bet it’s framed on the wall with her and my fathers degrees, actually…
I really have minimal desire to go back to school; I barely finished college alive, to be honest. The only thing that kept me sane during my time there was my participation on the tennis team, a few amazing professors, and my ex-girlfriend (who is now happily married and expecting a baby in February, but we’re still friends, and she reads this site, so hi Katja!). An M.B.A. would probably be the quickest and dirtiest degree to get - but to what end? I once told my academic adviser in college that my career goal was “lower-middle management.” Well baby, I’m there now! Who else can say they reached their lifetime carrer goal by the tender age of 27? Between that and working to make money for my hobby (photography, specifically wedding), what else could I possibly ask for, career-wise?
Does anyone else have this constant academic pressure from their family? Is this a normal “I just want my baby to be all they can be and be the best and be successful and happy” wish, or is this indicative of a bigger problem? I think that everyone else in my family got the overacheiving striver gene, whereas I got the laid-back surfer gene. No offense to surfers, of course. They just tend to be the most laid-back people I know.


